twenty two, this one's for you

i think of you in gaps

of what i think are singular infinities

countless times a day

you got me racing, heart pacing fast per minute

every spare second

every heartbeat counted

every breath taken, stolen

every eyelid closed and opened

i steal glances from afar

at times you won't even notice

at times when i may skip your line of thoughts

those are when you never left mine

i think you are my skyline

because i marvel you like one could

only in your embrace i could scream

i could stretch my arms; and be free

you got me tangled in a mess

you got me tangled in

you got me tangled

you got me

and for that i love you

for that i love you

that i love you

i love you

(i.t)

one day;

she decided to fall in love;

she fell in love with the way the city lights up at night

she fell in love with midnight drives over highways

she fell in love with constellations

she fell in love with busy streets and driving shotgun for hours

she fell in love with urban vibes felt when she's with her friends

she fell in love with traveling and adventuring

she fell in love with the way inspiration hit her reckless like lightning

she fell in love with the idea of what's unknown and what's yet to discover

she fell in love with old book pages and cups of tea

she fell in love with the freedom felt of coming home late

she fell in love with concerts and music festivals

she fell in love with the solitude company of the beach

she fell in love with the complication of one's line of thoughts

she fell in love with the idea of running away

and decided to fall further;

she fell in love with life

she fell in love with thoughts and emotions

she fell in love with all things secular and worldly

she fell in love with all things set above and beyond

she fell in love with the idea of feeling infinite

she fell in love with the idea of love

yet one thing she fails to fall in love with; is herself

(i.t)

Malam itu aku terjaga;

[ 11:59 ]

Ambang hari yang baru

Diam, sepi, sunyi adanya

Tersirat keinginan untuk mengenangmu

[ 12:02 ]

Hentakan air rasuki dada

Sesak, gelisah, perih, tenggelam

Daya hanya cukup untuk hanyut berpasrah

[ 12:05 ]

Hitam pekat sang belenggu

Buka mata, tutup mata, tiada beda

Kian mencari keberadaanmu

[ 12:09 ]

Aku masih disini

Pupus sudah keinginan untuk bernostalgia akan dirimu

Jangkar hati pada dasar laut ini hanya dapat menjeratku

[ 12:11 ]

Tangan, raihlah ke atas, lepas dari kenangan ini

Ombak, jangan tarik aku kembali, jangan seret ia bersamaku

Kamu, tinggallah bersama waktu lampau, disanalah tempat tinggalmu

[ 12:12 ]

Langitlah masa depanku

Permukaan air masa kiniku

Dasar laut masa laluku

[ 12:15 ]

Hati, di ruang waktu manakah engkau?

Pikiran, melayang bebas dan berenang lepas

Jiwa, buatlah hati dan pikiran saling jatuh cinta, selaras kembali

[ 12:20 ]

Kontemplasi, remuk redam hati

Bawalah tidur, bawalah pergi

Dimana engkau raib, tiada lagi

[ 12:22 ]

Tolong

Jangan bawa hatiku lari

Jangan pergi, jangan lagi

[ 12:34 ]

Bergeming

Tersadar akan apa yang tak kembali

Hati tertinggal di dasar laut yang takkan aku kunjungi lagi

—i.t